Ch50 - Within a Dream

Editor: MinMin

Bai Xi took a bath and climbed into bed dressed in his yellow ducky pajamas. After spending half of his day in the hospital, he was tired and soon fell asleep.

He did not know if it was because he had met Zhao Qingtong today, but he had a dream where he was back in his freshman year of college.

He passed by the teaching building and saw Qi Xun sitting under a tree, listening to music with headphones on. He passed by and shouldn’t have come up to talk. He should have pretended to be casual about Qi Xun like he had done countless times before. He nodded and walked calmly.

He saw Qi Xun sitting under a tree, listening to music through his earbuds, as he passed by a school building. He should have kept on walking, and he should not have struck up a conversation with Qi Xun. He should just nod to Qi Xun and walk calmly away like countless times before.

But this time, he didn’t.

He went up and asked Qi Xun what song he was listening to. When the man glanced up, he could see his reflection in the other man’s eyes. He was only nineteen years old during that time, young, nervous, but still unable to restrain the babbling emotions inside as he beamed.

Qi Xun removed one of his earbuds and stuffed it into Bai Xi’s ear.

In his dream, he didn’t hear clearly what song was playing in his headphones. He only felt Qi Xun’s shoulders gently touching his. In the hot summer, Qi Xun held his hand and smiled, Said, “Your hands are so small, as if they haven’t grown up yet.”

In his dream, he did not hear what song was playing from the earbud, the only thing he felt was Qi Xun’s shoulder lightly against his. On this hot summer day, Qi Xun grabbed and held his hand, smiled, and commented, “Your hand is so small, it is like a little kid’s.”

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Because the dream was too realistic, Bai Xi stared at the ceiling for a long time in a daze as soon as he woke up. He could not almost distinguish how old he was now.

The last sentence Qi Xun said to him in his dream happened in reality, at least close to it. He went to hang out with Qi Xun in college, and to have a great time, alcohol was involved. He wanted to drink as well, but the other man stopped him.

“Drinking is prohibited for children.” Qi Xun said.

He was unhappy, saying how he was an adult and had passed the drinking age.

Qi Xun raised his eyebrows slightly. “Really?” He grabbed Bai Xi’s hand and compared it with his own, the corner of his mouth curled into a smile. “But you look like a little kid.”

Bai Xi lay on the bed, hugging his pillow before rolling around, his face blushing rosy.Alas, although it had been several years, Qi Xun was still as perfect and alluring as he remembered.

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Qi Xun disagreed as he massaged the other’s belly. “I am still restraining you on that. With your stomach, you should drink less.”

Bai Xi puffed up his cheeks. “Fine, then I will have to drink behind your back.”

Qi Xun did not argue with him. Most of the time, Bai Xi was right under his nose anyway.

He put his arm under Bai Xi’s knee and picked the man up. “Let’s not stay in bed any longer. Time to brush your teeth and eat breakfast.”

Bai Xi put his arms around the other man and pinched Qi Xun’s shoulder restlessly. Qi Xun had been too busy to exercise recently, but why were his muscles still so strong?

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After breakfast, they went to work respectively.

Qi Xun took a rare break after the morning meeting. He was the only one in the office. He picked up his phone and subconsciously opened the dialog box with Bai Xi, but thought that Bai Xi should be at work, so he put it down.

Right now, Qi Xun had a rare moment to rest after his morning meeting. As he sat in his office alone, he pulled out his cell phone and subconsciously opened the chat between Bai Xi, but he put it down again, not bothering Bai Xi during work.

He took a sip of coffee and his eyes moved to the group photo of him and Bai Xi on the table, which was taken during their trip to the ancient town’s maple tree forest.

When business partners came to his office and saw this photo and spotted this picture frame, they knew that he was taken. Not only did they give up on the idea of introducing partners to him, but they also started to tease him a bit.

But based on Qi Xun’s nature, he did not like this social interaction at all, which was why it made Zhong Yuqin laugh so hard.

Qi Xun stared at the picture for a long time.

When he sent Zhao Qingtong back yesterday, the ride was very silent. Since the other was someone who he broke up with years ago, there was nothing to talk about.

But when they were about to reach their destination, Zhao Qingtong told him something.

“You should be well aware of the real reason why we broke up back then. Because you can only be a thoughtful and gentle partner, but you cannot be a real lover. You do not love me the same, and so my love for you could not advance.”

Qi Xun glanced at him from the rearview mirror. There was no warmth within those eyes.

Zhao Qingtong shrugged and did not mind the other’s attitude at all. “Look, I am not here to pay back, there is no point in that. You told me frankly that we are no longer partners, so there is nothing unfortunate about our breakup. I just felt that at your current position…”

Zhao Qingtong felt a little ridiculous when he said this, and smiled softly, “Bercy is really a good person, much better than you and me. If you miss him, you probably won’t find anyone who loves you more. But Qi Xun, let me give you a piece of advice, don’t just rely on Bai Xi’s love for you to think that he will never leave you.”

When he got to this point, he smiled softly and felt it was a little absurd. “Bai Xi is a good person, much better than what we had. If you miss this chance with him, you will never find anyone else who loves you more or even at the same level. But Qi Xun, let me give you a piece of advice. Do not rely solely on Bai Xi’s love for you and do not have the mindset that he will never leave you.”

“People need a sense of security in relationships. It’s important to be good to him, but it’s also important to let him know that you love him. No one likes to guess another person’s thoughts. It’s very tiring. As long as you love him, You should tell him and let him know that you care about him. And if you don’t love him, it’s just because of your sense of responsibility, because he is suitable for you, and because he loves you very much, then you might as well let him go as soon as possible. Has he left you? , still can’t find someone who loves him and treats him well? “

“People need to have a sense of security in their relationships. Yes, it is crucial to be good to them, but it is just as important for them to know that you love them. No one likes to guess what the other is feeling. That is too tiring. If you love him, you should tell him and show him how much you care about him. If you don’t, and you’re only doing it out of a sense of responsibility, because you and he get along well, or because he adores you, you should let him go soon. Do you think he will not find someone who loves him and will treat him well after leaving you?”

Qi Xun did not interrupt Zhao Qingtong.

But his face was like frost. When he came to a stop at a red light, he looked back at Zhao Qingtong with eyes that said he wanted to kick the other out of his car.

He asked Zhao Qingtong, “Did Bai Xi tell you this?”

Zhao Qingtong flatly denied it, “No, let’s just say it is a piece of advice from someone with experience. It is up to you if you listen or not.”

Qi Xun snorted lightly and did not acknowledge Zhao Qingtong’s advice.

Then the rest of the way was silent.

When they arrived at the friend’s apartment, Zhao Qingtong’s face changed when he saw Bai Xi.

He watched on the side with sight irritation.

Qi Xun was well aware of what Zhao Qingtong had said. If Bai Xi left him, Bai Xi could still attract many people. Those people would be moved by Bai Xi and have this urge to possess the young man entirely for themselves, like a lion hunting prey.

He knew this very well.

However, in his more than two decades of life, the proposition of love was very far away. He was not someone who could sweet talk with graceful words and flowery speech. Even when he proposed to Bai Xi, he did not say ‘I love you’ to Bai Xi, even if he knew it would make the other very happy.

He promised Bai Xi that he would try to learn to love him, but when he made the promise, he did not know whether he could succeed.

Loving someone was a natural talent, and he happened to lack that talent.

As he stared at the picture on the table, he got lost in his thoughts.

Bai Xi looked at him with a smile under the maple tree. Anyone could see the tenderness in those bright eyes, while he was looking down at Bai Xi with his slightly drooping eyelashes. It was difficult to tell what emotions were in his own eyes.

Then, he remembered Zhao Qingtong’s advice again.

Do not rely solely on Bai Xi’s love for you, and do not have the mindset that he will never leave you.

The author has something to say:

Pine Nut Tea: Please give a round of applause for Zhao Qingtong in his final part of this story, and his thoughtfulness in helping others’ love lives